Makes sense?

Wow...its sucha relief juz to start a new post!

I'm feelin an undying desire to write...i think its time i take this up seriously..after all this was in the plan...

I believe or rather..i used to, that whatever you desire, plan for your future..what you foresee yourself doing, comes true one day, sumtimes witha few alterations but things do take shape. NOW its not a belief anymore, its PROVED right. I've come to understand the true meaning of "If you knew the power of your thoughts, you would never think a negative thought:

Coz i did think alot of neg, alot of evil and even today sumtimes...innocently, unaware of this realization, i do, out of impulse, out of concern for a beloved, out of being a human. And later on, all i can do is pray that it shouldn't come true...i shouldn't be the one responsible ...I'd just like to say that god is smart. He knows...i didn't mean it..

This theory can probably explain why there's so much of evil around. Because they mean it. They mean to do harm, make this beautiful place a living hell. They mean to create an imbalance to such an extent that people will at last realize that peace is not a given. You need to protect it, stand up for it, fight for it. In an era where even free and abundant things are not free...how did you take peace for granted?...Lets be ready to pay a heavy prize for our heavy mistakes.

We are back to square one. Undo your seat belts...its time

SHollow

Wipe out the emptiness. Fill it with rains. Rest your eyes a bit. I know it hurts. Its non sensical. You'll probably have to blow it away. Let it mess things. I want to be mean. I want to see the sad side of me, the bad side of me. If thats what its gonna take to kill. I can't nip it in a bud. Coz its not a bud anymore. Its cancerous advance compels me. It compels me to think where i went wrong and how difficult it is to repair. It compels me to regret without any ray of hope. The only hope is retreat. Something im very much aquainted with. Its growing. The more i write, the more it grows, the more it grows the more i write, the more i write the more i get bored, the more i get bored, the faster it goes. I'd be able to sleep then OR maybe not.
Lying awake under the aerial blades, my mind races through the chores of life, and the worst finds its place first, lasts for a cruelly long time till it bores me to sleep. Only two stages might seem not so difficult. But the phase? i feel like im talking crap, thinking crap, acting crap and living crap! This ain't life, is it? which side of it i have not yet known? I would deny to say there aren't many. Just yesterday! Yesterday i came across this thing., A girl asking her friend, "So, how are u treating life?". I was 'mind tied' for a few seconds. If someone had asked me that question, I and others too would have pitied on it. I didn't realize that its not what life makes us..its what we make out of life.
Yeah, i realized. I remember there was a period of realization. Alot of things i realized. But,I just realized. Whats on the plate. From what is going on in my mind, its Retreat again, something im very much aquainted with.
Its growing. The more i write, the more it grows, the more it grows the more i write, the more i write the more i get bored, the more i get bored, the faster it goes. I'd be able to sleep then.
Gud nite. :)

all right, here im again :D
i just finished reading five point someone n i think the novel is pretty coooooooool man....seriously, tho i should admit his writing style infact the whole characterization of characters? is pretty much the same, n the story revolves around similar situations, for eg. bold girls, love life going oh so lovely!, the same bollywood style of parents objecting n protesting...then the well planned twists n turns like life would really be so meherban. I mean things look so smooth, even the hard times, they just pass away, jlt!
ok enough about his -ves...but he sure keeps his readers captivated.
As im thinkin bout the novel, its simply slipping out of my mind, you know. Like, there were instances when i really laughed my guts out, when Ryan calls Hari fatso for the first time which is absolutely irrelevant to the topic discussed, i guess it was the sytem Ryan was talkin bout n the nerds who keep muggin notes all the time.
Then when Hari is intrigued by the types of name Neha calls their relationship with, like ur my frnd, then a good frnd, then special frnd n then, lol, sweetest special frnd!!!! And there are many more such jokes that i couldn't help but laugh, while i was in the train!!! (readin the book ofcourse)
Man how i tried nippin it in the bud, but it had to come out n puzzle ppl y is this lady like female acting crazy ...anyway it was worth it
For some reason i could relate to the whole story n IIT thing, obvious reason i have ;)
Lols bunkin office today reminded me of the first novel i read durin my ssc days i.e. "If tomorrow comes" by Sidney Sheldon. I bunked classes n finished readin the novel in 3 days, seemed like n achievement to me.
I wonder if these days anything seems like an achievement to me. OH YES! Now i know why i could relate to these guys. I'm also playin an underdog these days!!! In office, in class, in everything i do!!! WOW, its amazing how u discover things once u start really thinking about ur life n probs..u have the answers right under your nose!!! saale chupe baithe rehte hai udhar ich :o)
...hmm there's ALOT MORE...par abhi k liye i'll juz post it...will edit it later on...enjoy ;)