SHollow

Wipe out the emptiness. Fill it with rains. Rest your eyes a bit. I know it hurts. Its non sensical. You'll probably have to blow it away. Let it mess things. I want to be mean. I want to see the sad side of me, the bad side of me. If thats what its gonna take to kill. I can't nip it in a bud. Coz its not a bud anymore. Its cancerous advance compels me. It compels me to think where i went wrong and how difficult it is to repair. It compels me to regret without any ray of hope. The only hope is retreat. Something im very much aquainted with. Its growing. The more i write, the more it grows, the more it grows the more i write, the more i write the more i get bored, the more i get bored, the faster it goes. I'd be able to sleep then OR maybe not.
Lying awake under the aerial blades, my mind races through the chores of life, and the worst finds its place first, lasts for a cruelly long time till it bores me to sleep. Only two stages might seem not so difficult. But the phase? i feel like im talking crap, thinking crap, acting crap and living crap! This ain't life, is it? which side of it i have not yet known? I would deny to say there aren't many. Just yesterday! Yesterday i came across this thing., A girl asking her friend, "So, how are u treating life?". I was 'mind tied' for a few seconds. If someone had asked me that question, I and others too would have pitied on it. I didn't realize that its not what life makes us..its what we make out of life.
Yeah, i realized. I remember there was a period of realization. Alot of things i realized. But,I just realized. Whats on the plate. From what is going on in my mind, its Retreat again, something im very much aquainted with.
Its growing. The more i write, the more it grows, the more it grows the more i write, the more i write the more i get bored, the more i get bored, the faster it goes. I'd be able to sleep then.
Gud nite. :)

all right, here im again :D
i just finished reading five point someone n i think the novel is pretty coooooooool man....seriously, tho i should admit his writing style infact the whole characterization of characters? is pretty much the same, n the story revolves around similar situations, for eg. bold girls, love life going oh so lovely!, the same bollywood style of parents objecting n protesting...then the well planned twists n turns like life would really be so meherban. I mean things look so smooth, even the hard times, they just pass away, jlt!
ok enough about his -ves...but he sure keeps his readers captivated.
As im thinkin bout the novel, its simply slipping out of my mind, you know. Like, there were instances when i really laughed my guts out, when Ryan calls Hari fatso for the first time which is absolutely irrelevant to the topic discussed, i guess it was the sytem Ryan was talkin bout n the nerds who keep muggin notes all the time.
Then when Hari is intrigued by the types of name Neha calls their relationship with, like ur my frnd, then a good frnd, then special frnd n then, lol, sweetest special frnd!!!! And there are many more such jokes that i couldn't help but laugh, while i was in the train!!! (readin the book ofcourse)
Man how i tried nippin it in the bud, but it had to come out n puzzle ppl y is this lady like female acting crazy ...anyway it was worth it
For some reason i could relate to the whole story n IIT thing, obvious reason i have ;)
Lols bunkin office today reminded me of the first novel i read durin my ssc days i.e. "If tomorrow comes" by Sidney Sheldon. I bunked classes n finished readin the novel in 3 days, seemed like n achievement to me.
I wonder if these days anything seems like an achievement to me. OH YES! Now i know why i could relate to these guys. I'm also playin an underdog these days!!! In office, in class, in everything i do!!! WOW, its amazing how u discover things once u start really thinking about ur life n probs..u have the answers right under your nose!!! saale chupe baithe rehte hai udhar ich :o)
...hmm there's ALOT MORE...par abhi k liye i'll juz post it...will edit it later on...enjoy ;)

filhal toh yahi hai :P

its been a while since i wrote anything on anything..hehe...now u know, not writing for a long time affects your writing skills to a ridiculous extent. [:p]
okies so lemme start with...
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work? my new job? ummm ok..not bad to start with. Alright my job has a lot of scope for progress for me as well as for the company. If creative minds are put together and plans executed as strategized, the brand that i'm handling (also other brands) will sky skeen in a matter of time.
Now coming to my boss and subordinates (well i joined as a trainee but im given a bigger responsibility at par with my seniors so now they are my subordinates [:P]) They are good but sumtimes seem to ignore my suggestion considering the fact that i'm a complete rookie in this field. The area that i felt confidently is my strength, i.e. research, is now being questioned!!! i don't know if thats an eye opener or how should i take it...but all i know is my convincing skills suck big time!