Monday, August 9, 2010
To my teelu...with loads of luv...god bless you
Hi there dude…hugs..loads! big... huge!....im sorry…I donno what to say..i still can’t believe your gone..i want to cross check..but I think she’s right… I didn’t find u the last two times I went to b2. You weren’t there and im so sorry but those two times.. I was kinda relieved that now I can play with other pups..coz u never let me play with other pups….u know that I enjoyed ur attention and dominance tho…teelu u were a good dog …I hadn’t known u since u were born but u always felt so excited to see me, play with me…soon u became my fav..u know I don’t have favs in dogs..cozz all r gud…but honestly..with all my heart, I was proud of a dog like you. You were strong, cute…clean! And you always made me happy by the way u expressed your happiness to see me. You were a quick learner. That day when I was hiding from you and sat in front of vrishali’s house. I saw how without even looking back that im coming or not…involuntarily u ran and sat on the electric katta…u knew that that’s the place I always asked u to sit so that you dn’t jump at me…n I can massage your head and play with ur moochi…You were a strong dog teelu…I dunno…if I had juz asked around about ur whereabouts..the last two times…I would have treated you. I still can’t believe…when aunty told me…I became so selfish that I asked her..r u sure it wasn’t tai..but teelu?...they called u with a different name…I don’t rmmbr…but u were my teelu..the best dog…I want to thank you for shutting tai up when she was barkin at me as usual…unnecessarily…and u juz held her barking mouth n tried to close it with urs…I boasted about you to my friends teeli...i also rmmbr the time when I ignored you prolly jaan booj k q ki u simply won’t let me play with teddy bear…and I sat on the association katta…u came running and climbed gole uncle’s car and from the roof you tried to nudge me with ur hand …see im here!...play with me…I want to play with u now…yesterday…I dunno how long u’ve been gone…its sad…I thot its rainy season ..u must be sleeping in sum cozy..dry place…I had no idea that sumthing of this sort could happen. ..im really going to miss you teelu!!!!! u know that i love u right? :(
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i hugged teddy bear yesterday and cried..he didn't know what to do..he was luking restless...i dunno if he wanted to play with me or he knew that im really sad...
ReplyDeleteim still sad...when im alone..(well i've been alone since ur gone..at home..becoz of my illness)..when im alone...even in the room...sitting on the sofa...i kinda visualize u sitting next to me..i so want to hug u then..there's a dog my sis has pinned to the sofa..i hug it instead..but nothing can replace u..im not a fool to juz imagine sumthing else as u n treat it like i'd treat u...and then i told that guy bout u...he's sucha jerk..i felt so bad that y the fuc do i have to tell sum dumbfuck who don't even value simple emotions...who can't value u!...he's out now...but i still feel sorry for the kinda choices i made...i haven't been to b2 since then...im now worried about other dogs too..teddy bear esp...coz he's been always der u know...when i was down..i hugged him n cried...when i was shocked to see those useless lil pups eating their own dead bro...i felt sick n i hugged him n cried...and then u were gone...i sumtimes wonder...ki y im still stuck on u...u know...i mean its been along time since i stopped takin these deaths to my heart..coz u all juz passed away...i used to feel sad..but strangely i stopped crying by default..i felt that knot in my throat..but i didn't cry...i think all this is happening becoz i informed nobody about it...coz i knew..if any of them reacted like this asshole did...i wud have done the same thing what i did to him..coz dogs r precious to me...nobody can talk crap about my dogs! period...miss u..i dunno if this punar janam ki cheez i true..i owe u alot..i'd like to pay back :) hope u'll b as gud as u were..loads of luv n hugs!
ReplyDeletelatest! one of the aunty's (old aunty who to feeds all the pups n cats?) i met her yesterday...and sare pillu log mujhe wahi mile..their late evening meal was going on...teddy bear bhi wahi tha...so i was talkin to her and enquired about u..she says ki sumbody gave u poison!...becoz u used to bite alot!...BITE! YOU???..I haven't seen u goin that far teelu..seriously..u were a peaceful kid..tho u dominated over every dog in the gali...but u maintained the decorum..dunno if u really bit ppl..n if u did im sure they were lukin suspicious...so teelu..what is it?..yesterday i felt ki im actually feeling so sad...kahi teri aatma asli mein na aajaye..n i got scared :P ...i started wondering what if i get a tug on my blanket or the way u used to nudge me..on my hand or leg...n again say..Luk Im here! Play with me! :(..miss u babes...hugs n kisses..love u
ReplyDelete:( teeli...mixed feelings hai yaar..kya bolu..fir se miss kia...actually yeh sab u know..is very fake ekdum se...but who do i share this with?..ur not here...i can't go b2 every now n then...baki nobody understands teelu :( ...mujhe tujhe kuch bolna tha i forgot..yeah!..i know this is kiddish..don't even know y im doing this..i said alil prayer to god..to save that goat...since ur there..ask him to do it..pls :(...i know this is very lame..khud karne k bajaye im thopoing it on god...par i can't really do anything bout it...churake kidhar rakhu?...and there r millions of them...its really very cute...last time i saw and it was lookin up...so innocently...its very sad...that ppl don't realize what they're doing..itne din rakh k attachment bhi ni hua kya?...sheee :...chal dats it re...ttyl..miss u..luv u
ReplyDeletehmm since i'd gone to nmmc yesterday, i went to b2..realizing that my connection with dogs...its going :( u know...but no! there she was- masky...she was vomiting so cudn't feed her anything...then bandit as alsi as ever did get up to eat..wahi i met onu...fir ekdum se onu grrr karne laga i saw teddy! :D..he's so cute...luks like a siberian tiger to me...juz that he luks alil chini too :D...i can see how happy he gets when he sees me...bandit has become expressionless..or proly got only 3-4 expressions..i felt bad for i've been doing to her like u know..since she doesn't wag her tail or show excitement i juz talk to her for a few seconds n thats it...oh! u know that pillu died?...christian aunty says that bandit has become even more i dunno..dull after pillu's death..ofcourse they didn't like each other in obvious ways...but prlly she was her companion in a way...hmm..then i met soni didi...i fed teelu n bruno n didi' kid also wanted to eat ...i heard frm didi that yes u used to get fits..n dats a cause of death..not direct one tho...u went after sumone n u got fits n other dogs attacked u to death!...teelu its very heart breaking...i mean when u were defenseless al that happened...if u were in ur senses nobody cud have done no harm to u..that im sure...dammit..im not able to write it all becoz my bro's around..i had a huge fight with him yesterday...i swored like crazy..al the words i kept to myslf...surfaced..becoz nonstop he's being mean...covers his intentions by blaming me! im tired..im tired of being a scapegoat..hmm..so yes i keep hearing stories about u..i even thot of conducting n investigation...like if she says that u got fits n dogs attacked u..who saw it?...n if nobody saw it how do they juz spread stories like this????...u've been a mystery teelu...i dreamt that u came back..ALIVE...n i then i was relieved that now i don't have to hold any grudges against him...i felt so light..pls come back :(..as urslf..oh btw...tuffy delivered pups-4..cudn't see them coz waha kaam chalu tha n all the workers were in the hall...she's delivered in the bathroom of the house under construction...luv u babe...miss u alot.. <3
ReplyDeleteHi sweet heart :(...long time no c ha ...
ReplyDeletetujhe pata hai aaj kya hua?...that dog outside my gym...that fur ball...my alnerative winter blanket...he died re....i saw him on 25th after midnite...he was not well..i could tell..i thot he had a fits attack...but not major...he'd lost sum weight too...kabhi bhi mujhe dikhta toh he'd get SUPER excited (yeah, not as much as u :P) but he did...aur itna furry ...itna furry! long dark golden hair...uff...agar koi use pet rakhta nobody wud guess that he's a street dog...i cud juz cuddle up with him all day long on a cold day...n that wud be enuf to keep me n my heart warm....teelu...he was feeling dizzy n lost...but still he made n effort to wag his tail..show his joy to c me...dad mere peeche pade the..chal ghar mein..i still opted to spend a few moments with him..c what is wrong with him...i thot next day i'll inform ida about him...i didn't..i posted it on their fb page...n then inquired it on sat nite with amit..aur sunday ko pakka kar dia k use turbe mein leke jana hai...this stupid delay....he had already died on sat morning yaar...i mean...juz few hrs later after i met him he gave up :((
Even supriya loved him...im gonna miss him so bad...almost everyday i came him...i had to meet him...pata ni re...the receptionist said tht he was poisoned...y wud sumone do that :((...dammit..teelu yaar...ask him to incorporate a poison sensors in ur noses...plz don't juz go like this yaar...its unfair to lose u guys like this....pls