Im just gonna go with the flow, a few things i realised today, u may not find them 'deep' enuf, after u said that i don't find no meaning in whatever i say or even think! can u beat that...yes i feel like its all..juz there! nvm
u didn't mean so much like u do right now or all these days. I still want to talk to you..u know about the serious things in life...about philosophy...or philosophies dominating my life...but ur not there anymore, n im tired of all the drama, drama is causing me to want to talk to u...and ur causing more drama which i can't handle. All this time i just took time to open up to talk serious stuff, so that like last time i don't get punched in the face and feel like n idiot for trusting someone outta my own whims n fancies. But u sure didn't have enuf patience nor did i. Anyway there was this thing i realized which is juz slipping away. Nothing sensible is staying with me. Only petty things r whirling around. Vimal is a good friend, n i know soon enuf we might end up in a sad fight n i will have to move on. so errrrrrr here it is...u werent this important to me, i went there to have fun, im glad i met u n im thankful to u for all ur help and wonderful company, ur a great guy....when i came back n my frnd asked if i met someone special i tuk ur name n confessed i reallllllllllly realllllllllllllly wish i found a guy like u...younger n single...but i honestly had no inappropriate feelings for u. only respect and admiration. I didn't mean to keep in touch either...but we met again, thanks for a wonderful evening. anyway rest i don't need to repeat. All this while i was so cautious to not COOK anything outta it...n make sure u don't either. Juz 2-3 days before u sent that msg on fb, i had drafted a msg REMINDING MYSLF...that be very careful this shudn't go any further...if need be cut it down.
Im still drifting away frm the point cuz i still can't rmmbr it...u r occupying 40% of my headspace right now and its all becuz of the drama that was created...the admiration u showed and then ur sudden aversion. I was the same all the time, u had changing feelings and thoughts. And yet again history repeated itslf....You quit and i had to lose.
Its like u wanted attention and u managed to get urs. It didn't come naturally tho, itna magach mari is cheez k liye...fir chale jana, what do u achieve???...
u didn't mean so much like u do right now or all these days. I still want to talk to you..u know about the serious things in life...about philosophy...or philosophies dominating my life...but ur not there anymore, n im tired of all the drama, drama is causing me to want to talk to u...and ur causing more drama which i can't handle. All this time i just took time to open up to talk serious stuff, so that like last time i don't get punched in the face and feel like n idiot for trusting someone outta my own whims n fancies. But u sure didn't have enuf patience nor did i. Anyway there was this thing i realized which is juz slipping away. Nothing sensible is staying with me. Only petty things r whirling around. Vimal is a good friend, n i know soon enuf we might end up in a sad fight n i will have to move on. so errrrrrr here it is...u werent this important to me, i went there to have fun, im glad i met u n im thankful to u for all ur help and wonderful company, ur a great guy....when i came back n my frnd asked if i met someone special i tuk ur name n confessed i reallllllllllly realllllllllllllly wish i found a guy like u...younger n single...but i honestly had no inappropriate feelings for u. only respect and admiration. I didn't mean to keep in touch either...but we met again, thanks for a wonderful evening. anyway rest i don't need to repeat. All this while i was so cautious to not COOK anything outta it...n make sure u don't either. Juz 2-3 days before u sent that msg on fb, i had drafted a msg REMINDING MYSLF...that be very careful this shudn't go any further...if need be cut it down.
Im still drifting away frm the point cuz i still can't rmmbr it...u r occupying 40% of my headspace right now and its all becuz of the drama that was created...the admiration u showed and then ur sudden aversion. I was the same all the time, u had changing feelings and thoughts. And yet again history repeated itslf....You quit and i had to lose.
Its like u wanted attention and u managed to get urs. It didn't come naturally tho, itna magach mari is cheez k liye...fir chale jana, what do u achieve???...
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